woke up grumpy, great way to start the day
I know I’m the only one who can bring myself out of it but
talking to you about it just makes me feel like shit. why didn’t I learn not to bother the several other previous times you’ve said enough to piss me off
today you texted me
when I was doing so well on my own
I didn’t think you’d contact me so soon
it threw me off guard, off guard so much
that I got angry.
I was already angry
frustrated at my own failures
my own misgivings
and you didn’t help that feeling
it was a surprise.
an unwelcome surprise.
texting you now…
it’s not the same, it’s the same
but I don’t want to feel the same
I don’t want it to be the same
we won’t be the same
nothing can be the same anyway
it never happens once things have changed
I miss you, but I don’t think I can bring myself to tell you.
there’s so many things I wish were different but it clearly didn’t happen that way
you’re still texting me now, I feel dead, waiting for you to leave again, I’m waiting.
really felt out of it today,
you’re on my mind, unemployment, he’s on my mind
shoutout to the people who paid me immediately on Venmo
because your eyes, nose, lips
every look and every breath
every kiss still got me dying
uh, still got me crying
— Tablo (Eyes, Nose, Lips remix with Tablo by Taeyang)